Over all the huhahs and the fiasco. Tired emotionally and spiritually too. And I know that this is a dangerous situation to be in. People who are tired does not give a damn. And that is the feeling that is bombarding me know… “don’t give a damn”.

But Lord, how could I? As much I feel that I want to “don’t give a damn”, I’m bound by Your love, bound to obey and to love even though my heart “don’t give a damn”. Fill me O Lord with your love that I may continue loving with your love. Refresh me so that I would not be tired. Refresh me so that I can give a damn about it.

That’s what I feel right now. Ashamed and a hypocrite. When I listened to a preacher and hears what he has to say about his life and his beliefs, I would indirectly judged him by his conducts. Whether he do what he says or he is just “talking cock”. And I despised preachers who “talk cock”. I want to see a role model not just people who talk cock.

I must admit that I feel that I’ve become one of those preachers. Talking about God’s Words and commands, exhorting the congregation to obey and follow the commands, and yet I failed to show good example with my own family. Others may not notice it but I know the situation and I feel ashamed, a hypocrite. How then can I preach with convictions when I do otherwise!

I’m trying my very best to follow my head reasoning now. It is much more acceptable. Many times my heart wants to get its ways but it has been kept tied up tightly. Kept tied by the rope of Biblical commands and principles. The paradox of it all is this: It is because I wish to follow the Biblical commands and principles that such disagreement appears.

But I know that my heart must be tied or it may burst out all ungodly hasty words that cannot be recalled.

I doubt that she will apologize for her “outburst”. If she is my children, already kena rotan de… hard hard.

Can’t seem to remember the last time she apologizes for her wrong attitude. Nevermindlah… we just buat bodoh saja lah. We are always in the wrong one. What to do… they always think they are right. Sighhhh…. tired de lah.

“Who is Moto Moto?” I asked my two children. “Daddy lah” said Annabelle and Clarisa.

“What’s Moto Moto?” I asked them again. “Hot Hot”, they replied. Hmmm……

They been watching the animation movie Madagascar 2. If you watched that movie, you will see the female hippo, Gloria being infatuated with a big male hippo named Moto Moto. My children immediately associated Moto Moto to me when they saw the part where MotoMoto and Gloria danced together. You see, I loves to dance with my children and with their mommy, so I guess they may have remembered about me when they saw the movie scene.

I watched that movie and saw MotoMoto. Well, he is big and flirtatous, the “good side” of him. But he is also blur blur…. not a good side of him. Anyway… MotoMoto sounds okay lah… I dont want to be called Motorola.

Due to his mother wanting to let him have long hair, Barnabas was always being mistaken as a girl. I find it a bit “xxx” (don’t know the correct word to use)but I don’t really like it when that happens. For his sake, it would be better that he be dressed and looks like a boy.

I guess it is not a big issue for Barnabas as he knows nothing about this matter. It is more of the mother wanting her own way. Why can’t it be accepted that he is a boy and let him have a short hair. If ever she wants to have a baby with long hair, get another daughter lah, just don’t transform Barnabas into a girl. What is the point of having a son but he is treated as a daughter or being groomed to look like a daughter.

Maybe it is time to get more sons.

Okay guys. If you are playing MoSiang and seen “starhawk”, then you came to the right place. I am “starhawk” and this post is specifically for MoSiang players.

Most probably you are visiting this website is because you want to know more about me. You might want to know whether I am a scammer or not. Hahaha…that is okay because I too hates to be scammed by others.

Most of the time I will be selling Mosiang 380 points card. My selling price is 12M mosiang gold though this can be lower depending on the market. I would prefer if you could pay first the ms money (especially if you are trading for the first time with me) or pay half. Please let me have your handphone number for me to send the MS code.

I sell the cards because firstly, I want to use the ms gold, and secondly, I sell ms gold for RM to my customers.

I do hope that when you’ve read this post, you will know that I am not a scammer. My particulars are as below:

Name: starhawk or you can call me David Bong
Email: starhawk2u@gmail.com or davidbong2@gmail.com
Blogs that you can visit and please visit if you have time: The Music Inside Me Today (my other blog); and my wife’s blog, 4 of them…links at my sidebar under the title “Their Mommy’s Blog”

If ever you need to contact me, please call 012-2544606 (better sms than call). Or if you are in Melaka and wants to play Mosiang, come to Starhawk Internet Cafe at Batu Berendam, opposite Giant Hypermarket. I operate the CC, its a small CC.

I worked in the church before (Yes, I am a Christian) and now operate the CC business. I have a wonderful wife, the greatest wife on earth, and three wonderful children (2 beautiful daughters and a handsome son).

Okay…enough about myself. But if you want to know more, do leave your comments and I will answer it.

What I plan to do is to record my various transactions in Mosiang in this post.

So far these are the people in MS that I’ve traded the cards or buy ms gold from them.

1. “maxnws” - I bought ms gold from him and transfer RM through online banking Maybank. Hehehe…and he is looking for a girlfriend too. Please recommend to him if you know of any girl that is interested.

2. “KippY07y” - this guy who is also called Meng buys MS cards from me. A trusted buyer. He once hutang me one card but he still pays me back after a week plus. He fell sick at that time. He has another character…. oOSuperDancerOo…something like that but he sold it to others de.

3. “Pohun” - sold 2 cards to him so far. I haven’t spoken to him on the phone yet. He has yet to trust me but hopefully that will change in due time.

4. Others that I’ve traded with are MrQQ, xxThanatosxx, MrHoe, (sorry, some names are not the exact names, I can’t remember)

5. If you know some of these people/character, you can inquire from them about me
- Rozen
- Balcon
- TonyGohSE
- WuQingNvHai
- princ3Jonat3
- k0ruSakiIchig0 (my staff)
- tripelxxx (current owner)
- brokenleg (the Sarawakian)
- MaDong88
- Dayak87
- pacai89

Okaylah… I will edit the list whenever I do any tradings in MS. The above players are trustworthy and you can deal with them. I’ve known them and I believe that they would not scam you.

Updates -

21-12-2007 >> Sold one card to “Heavy” for a very good price 12M. He studied mechanical engineering and tried a few ways to use automatic mouse click for the game but to no success. His other characters are ImperialGuard and OrangeCountry.

22-12-2007 >> Sold another card to “Heavy” for 11M. He pays half…hehe…can trust me already. Lenglui1 still have not trust me yet coz he didn’t read this post. Maybe will sell a card to him if he agrees to pay half first.

29-12-2007 >> Sold a card to XxSi3wM3ngxX for 12M. He has another ID called KippY07y.

30-12-2007 >> Sold another card to KippY07y for 12M. He hutang me 2M.

1-12008 >> Sold another card to Heavy.

I still got a lot of ms gold not yet sold to my customers. So I will stop selling cards for the time being unless I sms you. If you want to buy card from me…leave you handphone number and I’ll let you know if I have the cards for sale again.

Clarissa is now 3 years old. She is very active full of energy. However, when her energy level is depleted she will feel tired and sleepy. Once we gave her milk, she will be full of energy again and will want to go and play again.

She is very independent or at least want to do things all by herself. Of course we have to guide her at first but most of the things she will take the initiative to try out all by herself. And she will be angry if we want to help her. And when she realised that she can’t do it all by herself, only then will she be willing to let us help her. Her size is still small and petite. Though she can be independent, she can be shy at times. If you look into her eyes, she will try and look away and smile sheepishly.

So far, I have yet to find out how to show her love. Her language of love is not Words so it is a bit difficult for me. Using words does not seems to work on her as effective as giving gifts or spending time. Will try and find time to speak her language of love.